are you kidding me?

Please don't do this to my friend and me, we worked hard for this!


How could this happen now? Life is a bitch.

Vonnegut.

Today, i'm very happy cause i found the books i've been looking for:

Cat's Cradle by Kurt Vonnegut.

Breakfast of Champions by Kurt Vonnegut.

Yes, another bonus :

Pug saves the Queen.

Before i step into this.

" Sleep early, you gonna work tomorrow!" Thats the statement i got from most of my friends just now.

But instead of listening to them, i ended up playing Monster Hunter Portable 3rd demo game for PSP. Yeah baby, finally i got to play it! My hunting skill seriously degraded.

Hello, mhp3rd.

The thing is, can you sleep well when the next day you ought to step into a totally new journey? (like going travel, somewhere far) Usually i can't sleep well or can't sleep at all. I'm feeling nervous, excited, my brain fill with thoughts... Thinking of all the 'What.. If?'

"No worry, first day is fun" my friend Charuk said. 

Screw my brain. I will expect a fun day tomorrow. I believe you Charuk! & hello to my new chapter, nice to meet you all. 

ps. cant wait for 1st Dec, the release of Monster Hunter Portable 3rd. ( gamer for life i guess )

Tax.

Growing up is fun, getting income tax is another thing. Today i went to LHDN, Lembaga Hasil Dalam Negeri aka Income Tax for my country at PJ Trade Center. The architecture of that place is very cozy, modern soho kind of place but i dont know why government service kind of thing located there.

I know about tax, when you dine in restaurant, bill arrive with extra charges, the 5% gov tax and 10% service charge. Then now every year i will get tax! I feel like an 'adult' now somehow. But the problem is:

"Here are my details and my documents.."
"Can you fill in the address here too.."
"Ohh i forgot okay.." (so i stand and bend down on the table to write down the address)
"Hey, why don't you sit down (oohh she is nice) the way you write like this look very sexy, not good, you better sit!" (erm....i was wearing tee shirt with cardigan and a long skirt - - i don't get the sexy part)

"Here, done."
"Okay. But why do you want to open an account anyway? Your salary now 'besar' (a lot)?"
"Erm not really, i just gonna start working next monday, my boss asked me to open one account."
"Well if is not a lot you don't really have to, it would just make it more hassle. You have to come declare every year."
"(shit + i hate this hassle face) Ohhhhhhhhh.....i got no choice i guess."


So the problem is tax.

We do our responsible as citizen but do the government really spending our $ well for the country? I don't think so. Well i cant comment anything yet, i am not yet taxed. :D


Adult 101: If you want to open an account for income tax, bring along a set of photocopy IC and letter of offer (company). If your income less than 26k per year, dont even bother about it. Avoid it.

for the sake of kitty.

400.

Off to work's briefing in 6hours time.

Working 2 days as back up designer :)  somewhere far but i think worth it, despite the jam on glory Monday (soon) and Tuesday.

Hope all my creative mojos/technique still, well exceptional.

When i still have my rambo long hair.

Should i keep it short or long now? Hmm.

Psst. Do you know our body renew/regenerate every (around)7 years? Maybe i am experiencing that now, all that thing that happened to me, i am growing and changing. Well i am 22 years old so possible right? (0-7years, 7-14years, and 14-21years ) Hopefully taller pls dear body.

Body: " In your dream monkey!"

I am lost in heat.

Today i got a job with Javad (as his personal assistant) at Wesley Methodist School in Sentul. I have to be there by 830am, but i woke up late and got lost in Sentul. I reached Sentul around 820am, i thought i can make it but being there for the first time was not helpful at all. Well, at least i know how to get to KLPAC and Sentul, is actually quite near to my place, ifffff no jam.

Anyway, Wesley Methodist School is not bad after all. The student will greet " Good morning sir/ Good morning Ma'am when they walk pass you (all the time). When i was a student back then, i just nodded my head to guest/teacher. Like a soft nod, well hardly even move my neck.

Javad said:" If anyone have low confident, they should go to school! It will train their confident, everyone is so outspoken here!"

And he repeated this statement 4 times, :"If i have children i gonna send them here."

Me:" Your children will destroy this school.."

After few unforgettable hours under the blazing hot, fried chicken skin, merciless sun, finally we got what we wanted. I fetched Javad back to Bangsar and i got lost again when trying to find my way back. Petrol was running low and i paid 3 unnecessary tolls : GARKKKKK!

Too hot to compute and i recorded this video from the facebook webcam (filters) with my handphone:



If you want to waste 3mins of your life, please watch the above video. :))

Snooze.

Trying hard to adjust my biological clock, waking up at 7:50am everyday for almost a week now. It was pretty hard, i snoozed at least 4 times (total up = 30mins) before completely gave up on my comfy bed. And the weather is not helping at all, so breezy and chill nowadays.

Why would i wake up so early every morning sunrise? Shouldn't i be slacking at home facing the computer screen whole day, well i decided to make myself a little tad useful to work part time at a confectionery shop. I smell like unsalted butter with a hint of vanilla essence.

No is not pleasant to smell like that everyday.


How long more will i recover from all the mess, how long more will i indulge myself with the comfort scent of pastry?

The past few days were my Dark Ages. "All my little dream kingdom are crushing down, declining from the previous glory!" Were there any at the first place? Hehe. In my utmost emotional meltdown of all time, of all time (kanyewest possessed) i seek Tarot card for advice. Yes, wtf moment happened at the most unexpected time. I can't denied the accuracy and possibilities of Tarot, cards saved me, myself. From this point on is Tarot reading talk: [ "I not going to let the Tower destroy and make myself misery. I am the Chariot, i have the Empress to pave my way eventhough there are a lot of confusion and obstacles up front but i have the Strength around me, aint afraid of nothing, bring it on and i will face it like The Hermit, wise and calm." ]

I feel like i am such a medieval person using all those phases like dark ages, tarot reading...chariot...empress... oh well.

They don't have traffic light during the dark ages.

Photo by me with canon demi ee17.

The point is i should stop snoozing my alarm and wake up asap. Maybe i should change my alarm tone, mario theme song aint working for me.




Care for some music?:
My cousin from NZ shared this with me, and i like one of the comment commented by someone from youtube:


"Best thing to come out of New Zealand since the hobbits?" by TheBigCricket.

Hello the world!

Hello world, are you ready for me? :)

Yay, i'm getting better now no more sick cat mode. Last week was disastrous to me, and i missed out a lot of good things. Now is time to redeem myself.

I just got online just now and my friend who are in Scotland now, Mr.KJ told me about email from Apicta! So i went and checked my email to see if i got any respond from them and ~ Yesh! I'm one of the finalist for the award! Congratz to myself. One thing i have to do now is to present again about my project in front of the panel of judges next Thursday, 1st of July.

Will this be my surprise birthday present? From who? Myself to myself.


Oh damn, the IPCC proposal deadline is on 1st of July too. Time to rush!

* Should i bake myself a chocolate cake? :)

Can i have your hand?

I got a part time job, accidentally. It was a favour for a friend of mine. The job is easy, pretend to be a patient, simulated patient for few hours and i'll get RM50. Why patient? No is not those doctor nurse patient game, is an actual exam for a bunch of freshly bake students from a medical college/uni. The future doctorsss have to greet us, the simulated patients , measure our radial pulse and blood pressure.

Sounds easy but haha most of them got it wrong! Well is their first year. I don't blame them but whn they asked:

"Can i have your hand?"
"Errr. (you want my hand?)"

"Thank you for your cooperation, hope to see you soon!"
"Errr. (i dont want to see a doctor soon?)"

Funny. hehe and most of their hands were shaky, guess they were nervous but better not shaky in the surgery room. Conclusion: RM50 for 830am to 130pm + non-slp day before that = ultra tired.


Money hard to earn. Should i sell my hand? :)


One more thing, why is the post I need a doc so many viewers? I bet everyone loves doc mart!

Be a man.

I kind of not agree with that what my mom's perception of us. She said that we a failure in education but i don't think so. Maybe we work a little bit different from others, but we meant no harm. We are different.

At least i want to think that i am different.

My final final final like really final result is out. Is not a good sight, i mean the achievement table. I did not achieved what i wanted to achieve, first class. I came second. Which means, HELLO PTPTN. I feel sorry for myself. Now i gonna graduate with 50k debt with me. :) Take the responsibility like a man. Well not a big thing i guess but sorry for those who expected more out of me.

I'm happy. I really am because i did great all these years. Screw you number and rating.

Speak of the man. Do you know theres a term - Penis Envy? Haha i came across this term when i was watching The Seven Deadly Sins program at History channel (my Astro at home only have discovery channels etc and news channels). Anyway two days ago it was showing about Envy and they talked abt Penis Envy.

Is actually quite interesting.. In the Freud theory, they said when a girl reach to realisation that she does not have penis,and they jealous of men because they have penis is Penis Envy. Penis represent power at that time. Well that time yeshh, women was suppressed everywhere they go, especially in the working world. Imagine the time at 1900 to the 50's.  Read more abt it here.

BUT. Theres another feminist said that men have Womb/Vagina Envy too. They envious towards women because we have the power to give birth to a life, nurture and the motherhood. Women as the essential role is sustaining life of the people.  This which leads men to become more dominant and drives to succeed (in work/etc).

Are you experiencing penis envy/ womb envy now? Don't worry is just psychological, we don't inherent this kind of feeling since we were born. Hmm..well i do admit that when i was young, i tried to be a boy. I don't know why i just hate being a girl. I think boy had the most fun and sometimes i do wish that i have penis. That was when i'm still in primary school. Shit.

Lucky! No fairy granted me that wish, yet. I think being a women now in this time is the prime, for me. We are more macho than men sometimes. We can do whatever we want, almost. Yeahh...penis envy? Might not be happening in the near future.

The womb had evolved, harder faster better stronger. (*alien screeching) Let's celebrate vagina day!



This post is so random. Gonna label it as random.

Still afraid of what and what not? Be a man!

Updated my FYP journal.

Check it out! Or watch the video here :)


Bit to Heartbeats [Digital Art Installation] from madmazelle on Vimeo.

Missing me bit?

One week ago i was busy like bumble bees. You know how bee works till the last breath of their life? I am almost like it but not the death part. Anyway! My digital media degree showcase had officially over last Friday. Those who missed it, here are some of the details:

The poster. More info click here.

If you interested to know what kind of digital installation i did, just click on the link to my FYP blog at the right sidebar there. I will update my work related post to that blog later on.

Some of the scenes during the exhibition(photos from friend's camera and mine):

By me.

Ends with a Heart <3 Love.

It was a great show. We all did amazingly awesome. :)

I learned a lot for the past few weeks, physically (soldering the wires, leds) and mentally (brainstorm for the conceptual part and script). Besides that, during the preparation for the exhibition, it was the first time that all of us dm kids were so united. hehe

I gonna miss you all. I wish i can learn more from each other and from the lecturers. Digital Media is moving towards a new phase, paradigm shift (one of the reason that the exhibition was named as 'paraDM shift') but we won't be there to witness it since we all gonna grad soon. Well, at least we were the pioneer batch to push DM in MMU to a higher ground. I guess. :)

Kick ass!

New start.

Hell yeah new sem/last sem had started! Check out my new hair cut. I cut it yesterday, the day before the sem reopen. Boy cut with a twist aka asymmetrical cut but i wanted shorter oh well.

Wearing: vintage short coat, fourskin tshirt (king) + harem pants.

Result finally out, bloody on the first day of new sem. Few of my mates got 4 flat...CONGRATZ! :) As for me, thanks to badminton i aint got no 4 flat. I never had 4 flat by the way. I got A- for my badminton subject, TAKE THAT KHAIRUL JOHARI! wahaha

Last sem, i need 0.03 more to get my free pass to debtless from PTPTN! DAMN IT! Last sem last hope last ride. Still have 3 subjects to go, can i make it? I hope i can, man. At least the thing i can do to get my ass free from anything.

For this sem, my main concern is my FYP. I just want to get over with the Google project. I think the reason why i can't really concentrate on it because my heart is with my FYP!! NOooOoo. Don't worry will clear the Google list first :) Hopefully by mid feb everything will be settled.

Oh, party in the USA. I hope i can get the opportunity to go to USA for the study program! *need to apply first*

Cheers to everyone. Have a kick ass semester! :)

Re-discovered.

Hola.

I think i should think less and do more when i am young. And think more and do less when i gets older. ( Inspire by here)

Just do your FYP! Stop thinking now.....think of the implementation part how are you gonna amaze your audience? How to tell a story by rediscover little pieces of other's footprint in the internet?

how how how.

I think i kena fuck.

These two days, i've been having migraine! Darn. I will loose my eyesight temporary...everything will be blank and bling... - - weird.

Anyway why i think that i will kena fuck soon? Cause my showreel for my intern company, yes the showreel again, yesss i not yet finish it. What took me so long? I dont know. Brain fart? I wan to do it..but i don't know the ways to execute it. I did alots of AE tutorials... but but but but i still dont know how to execute my own showreel. I got the ideas, i dont have the skills. :(

Finally i feel the stress of being a little intern.

Need GUIDANCE!!#*_!@$*@!_$*_!@

I miss siber dunia

You hear me right! I MISS CYBERJAYA ( for now)

& good news! i might be going back to CJ on friday night for the greater good!

Not.

Dear FA fren that gila-bagus-pergi-mampus in After Effect please be my tutor! ( main purpose, yes seriously)

Especially my hsemates but they dont read my nonsense blog here i guess.

OH. I did some tutorials for ae and my lovely laptop can't really endure all those fancy fancy effects...susah (hint: borrow pc pls).

& Cheese promised me to belanja me makan when i get back! FREE MEAL!

I did this little effect(very easy) today, thx to the tutorial from graymachine.com :

Soft Shock by Yeah Yeah Yeahs!

( no intention of infringement just to enhance my vid,

you know, the song make it much cooler HA)

Welcome home to CJ! soon.

* while waiting for the video to be uploaded, i spend around 10mins on washing dishes. That's why people hire maid for a reason. ( & Indonesia permit their people to work here as maid after much negotiation.) I not a jobsist or jobist or what, just that house chores are not for me. I rather cook and rest, let your hard work kena reward by letting somebody else wash the dishes for you. :) If one day i become a hsewife, i must be a wife of a fucking rich billionaire.

*took me almost 1hr to upload this video. wtf.

Work it out.

Job from my sister, design book cover for her course's graduation book. I think so. 

Anyway i keep delayed the design progress (sorry sis XD) but i managed to finish it on the last day ( one night, after my dota winning streak -_-). 

Since lack of information from the boss, this is what i did :

design by Madmazelle

Credits to: This tutorial for the color stripes, Free ps brushes on the net and

the two corporate-look-person photo i get from the net too but i edit it.

Personally, i think is kinda weird for graduation book. Normally buku mekar is very plain and dull with ur super big sch logo and sch compound images yada yada. Since my client said UP TO ME and she wanted funky style so this is it. TAKE IT AND GIVE ME MY MONEY!

More on the works:

The concept is simple:

The HRD produce top notch HR person, not just plain and dull but profesionnal and happening too. They know their works and ways and their personaility shines~the two successful looking human represent the future them, in a big city, building up their career and generate awesome ideas for their clients. Life is colorful and exciting even if you are doing office works. HAHA 

* to sis, if u see this call me or msn me dont sms me i cant reply. no credit. AND tell me the requirement. 

* I wonder the measurement correct anot, maybe will pixelated :D

Wannabeee~!

I wan to be a game designer. LOL one of the reason i choose Digital Media as my major. This short sem we will be designing a game..any game we want but why on short sem??! WHYY!!!! cursed.

The theme is Unreal. I am gonna make an old sch rpg game since lack of knowledge and time and good pc. I like rpg. 

Let's go! Time to get intimate with graphic, design and script, programming.