Sunday, February 28, 2010

Something is missing.

What about this emptiness in this bones? Why does sorrow echo inside my every cells?

Great. Sucker punch. In your face dear jw.

Trying to let go but yet wanted to hold on.

I just wish time heals. Time makes me forgets. Time is the only choice i have left here.

I hate my mind sometimes. "It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does."

fucking brain.

I miss my love.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Not right.

I am not as strong.

Tired. Take a rest. Walk on but i am not that strong.

What a night.

Wohoo. Went to KLPAC (Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Center) with my friends to check out my friend's performance. We lost in KL for 1 hour plus. Lucky the show started late. :D The show, it was awesome and mate's band Sforzando was awesome! i loveeee their songs btw. Unique in the local scene.

Najmi and Cheese.

Myra and Yvonne.

Cheese, Adam the wicked and Amy!

This is Yap. Overexposed :D

The venue, everyone were sitting on the floor..

Sforzando! in action.

I think KLPAC looks pretty awesome and i kept saying that:" If here is our campus, damn fucking nice" Myra said:" yea i would go to class everyday" Well, is modern and nice.

Went home, me, myra and von were on cracks. Laughing nonstop at the spontaneous singing and playing around with guitar, reciting poems and just having some of the funniest moments together. I love both of them, fun! Recorded some songs and poems but were for our ears only i guess. Others would never catch the jokes :P

My right eye hurts. I wonder whats wrong. Update again later.

Friday, February 19, 2010

This is the time when you..

I just cant squeeze out this brain juice. Something is wrong with me. Is not you, is me. My brain, please wake up. I can't play well, i can't sleep well, i can't function well.

The time when you feel so powerless, restless, breathless. I said:" Let's take a bet, all in." Take the risk of loosing it all, the outcome might surprise you in the end. Definitely. Hopefully.

No loose no gain. *finger-crossed Everything will be just fine.

Be hardcore and kick ass.


What if, thn i shall, good bye.

Tiger says Rawr.

Back in Kl. Cropped shirt from Pochiochi, Necklace from somewhere and comfortable leggings from Melody.

At Johor. First day of CNY. Vintage outer wear and lace top from somewhere. It was a hot weather.

Going back to my hometown, Johor. Top from a boutique in front of Old Town, Cyberjaya and harem pants from somewhere, red heels from Shoeobsession.

New year new clothes! Happy chinese new year to all. Gong xi fa cai. :)

*bad camera and handphone quality photos. wth is my dslr?

Friday, February 12, 2010

Alexander McQueen

One of my fav fashion designer, pioneer, unique person had passed away.

Rest In Peace.

When you had a few seconds of eye contact with a stranger, but you know that he/she is special yet you can't do anything.

Tuesday, February 9, 2010


Shit. I accidentally deleted my header(while experimenting with some new template) and i can't found back my previous header! sad. btw that sky photo was taken with the lomocamera lca. :( i lost it.

For now, i shall replace my header with an old dilapidated header i dug out from my ext hd. Yes the size is off. Btw, this header is the montage of my first set of lomo photos.. Now i think this have a little bit of Wong Kar Wai style, the look and feel. The yellow, blue, green, red. :D

Lost and found, literally. - -

Not what i expected.

I sucked at public speaking, still. Wait is forever. Don't think i can get the seat for US study program. I thought it would be more artsy easy let's share our ideas on new media art but no.

Btw, i think i am going to revamp here soon. Kinda bored of it. What should i do with it? But not anytime soon. Gonna be active in my FYP. Check out my FYP log for cnc.

Freaking tired. Bye world.

Need a reality check and dream check. I am so mess up right now.

Saturday, February 6, 2010



"If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you to you, it yours forever. If it doesn't, then it was never meant to be." - Anonymous.

I can't believe it. I actually cried last night.

I missed you. I wish you love.

Friday, February 5, 2010

I so lame

Dear Jian Yi/ Gal Gal,

Sorry i dint sit through the whole DJ night show and missed out your performance but i did went there to check you up but somehow i just left before your performance. . . Sorry dude

My bad but definitely 100% knows that you did well and awesome eventhough i heard that was a lame dance. :P SUPPORT!

From your clueless fren,


Thursday, February 4, 2010

The time bomb.

Can i still make it to the next level?

Time is running out.

"I'm late, i'm late" said the rabbit.

"Wake up Alice." Back to reality.

damn myself.

my eagle eyes!

oh oh, i am very excited. I got shortlisted for the US study program!! Wish myself luck. Pick me, choose me, fly me there! This explained the flag above.

All the best to me. Cheers.


Am i loosing myself among others? The more i try to be different the more indifferent i'll become.

Human are so unpredictable. When you thought that you know the person well but actually you aint got any clue. Bites back.

The more clearer i see and hear. I just want to be me again. Merci.

A black dot in a white paper.


It's been a sickish weeks, for me. For almost a week i had a low, sexy voice. And without notice, i was having fever at the same time. I hate medicine. Finally in the end, i lost the battle, went to visit the doc. Here were our conversation:

" Dah demam berapa lama? "
" 3 hari, dari Saturday hingga Tuesday. But dah heal."
" Oh okay. *took out thermometer and measure my body heat "

" Eh. You ada demam la "
" Oh yakeh? shit. "

One advice, never try to be your own doctor :D damn it, nowonder i was so tired for the whole week. So medication for another week. Guess what? PINK ANTIBIOTIC PILLS! Kill me please.
Never a big fan of antibiotics. They just sound so unhealthy. I not sure why.

And CNY is coming to dong dong chiang. i have the tendency to get serious illness during CNY or before CNY or after CNY. I remembered i had this scary red rashes all over my body for no reason. Wait, maybe CNY hates me but i like the poker session. :) i meant the gathering session with relatives.

Wish everyone have an awesome pre-cny preparation progress! Dong ching ke chiang ke chiang dong dong. Can i still get present for CNY? (still in xmas mood)