Messy? Just format.

yay i formatted my laptop. Super fast now still i only got 80gb = torturing. 

Thx to my fren Hakkai! He damn good in formatting pc haha done in 2 - 3 hours! ( only for girls thou) 

My almost new laptop's dektop's wallpaper :

CNY is almost over~ New sem starting, bring it on! &  thx to cny i gained more weight = = why not money! Gong Xi Fa Cai to all and Happy 牛( Niu aka New aka Ox) Year!

Rawr. 

Atlantica Online! ^^

After much struggle with the download and patch, finally i am able to play this Mmorpg. This is my character, spearman but is women hoho : 

Me got this little fetish towards spear :D Even my Legend of Mana character use spear as primary weapon. Espeacially girl using it, awesome.

Oh ya i played back Me & My Katamari (PSP). Damn i fingers hurt a lot!!!! Keep rolling rolling rolling...roll all the angpaos! woots. 

Love Hate CNY

Every year the same drama, over and over again. ( Same shit over again)

Should i stay or should i go?

Bored of it. I don't care anymore.

I will just take whatever good to me. 

Hope everyone have a happy Chinese New Year! ( & me too)

* human are so despicable! 

Reminder.

Just now was having this conversation with Cheese.

madmazelle: wanna go kl tml?

Cheese Hed: ?

madmazelle: = =

madmazelle: answer!

Cheese Hed: no la

Cheese Hed: dkat perak ahaha

madmazelle: pif

madmazelle: take bus come!

Cheese Hed: what fooooooor

Cheese Hed: u come here ka

Cheese Hed: *la

Cheese Hed: ada pantai

madmazelle: = 3=

madmazelle: aku nak beli baju ko

madmazelle: haha

Cheese Hed: whhaat

Cheese Hed: oh ya

Cheese Hed: remind me to get u a tshirt

madmazelle: why nid me to remind u to get ME a tshirt?

madmazelle: = =

Cheese Hed: ya la

Cheese Hed: cause im always hanging out at my friends shop

madmazelle: oh

madmazelle: nice shirt?

madmazelle: got nice jacket?

madmazelle: XD

madmazelle: mms tengok

Cheese Hed: ahahha

Cheese Hed: shitty phone la

madmazelle: shit la u

Hmm i am still using my 2004/5 year SE W550i mobile phone. At least mine can mms!! Remember to get me a tshirt or jacker! :D Terima Kasih Cheese-san.  & stop jizzing!

This is why i need a new desktop!

Halo 财神爷 aka God-that-brings-you-money, if you ever read my blog ( God use internet?) please listen to my prayer....:" I NEED A NEW POWERFUL PERFORMANCE DESKTOP!!!"

My husband number 4 ( my Asus laptop) crushed again! I should file a divorce or sue him for crushing my softwares. Okei i shall stop this 家家酒 drama. When i was editing my video ( me hunting Rathian after 3-4 months of non-hunting life), the Adobe Premiere Pro was damn lagged and Camstasia Studio crushed! Even the video that i recorded got some problems at the end there. 

Imagine if i am doing some serious thing like modelling 3D characters in my 3D software and if my laptop GG again, i will be very very very very pissed sad. 

Dear husband please upgrade urself or i just gonna find another lover that can perform better than you!!!! ( Run with tears to the kitchen and grab some mandarin orange to makan.)

I hate this part right here. =)

@)&)@!&$)@&$)!@!@%_!%_!%!*#*!(! rawr.

Update : Right after i clicked publish post, my laptop just jammed or hanged or stucked for like 10 seconds. = = Great. Now he is mad at me. 

Found a game!

Atlantica online!! 

Cb . So hard to download the full game client.....= = Hopefully i can get my hands on the game by tomorrow. Pray! 

Looking forward to play this game coz got alot of good feedback and some say is something like ff9! Is a turn-based  mmorpg so i shall try it out!!! & the characters are lovely...the artwork. 

Argh need to wait 5 - 6 hours more.....i shall go play my monster hunter 1st. :D

Illusion optic

I mistaken that Odette Yustman is Megan Fox. = = Damn they look quite alike. When i watched the Unborn trailer in cinema, i really thought that the actress was Megan Fox! I was wrong. LOL

Espeacially at the beginning of the trailer, damn look like Megan.

Guesswhich iswhich?

Go Von!

16th January 2009!  Went to Bangkok Jazz at Chulan Square to see Von Trappu Trio or Von Torapu Torio performance. I wanted to support  my roommate's Yvonne (or best known as Von) gig! wahhaa She can sing very awesome! When is our next sing k session? hehe

I dragged Ying and Kazu and Ying dragged Sowhat and TanSri together to the place. HaHa. We drank, we played and we shouted ( coz was playing the 007 games..."AHH!") . Met William, KhaiMing and the rest too. Anyway nice ambient and nice atmosphere for a good night out. Too bad no photos! wohooo~

BUT i steal a video from youtube! Their live performance , cover a japan song (from Inuyasha):

Sugoi desune!

Washed. Wasted. Wandered.

i need a life. 

TAG by MayLing (rockstar)

[Instructions: Strike out the ‘NO’s’ OR underline/colour/bold the ‘YES’s’ AND tag 6 people after you’re done.]

1. Coffee / Tea

2. Noodle / Rice

3. Ocean / Lake

4. Phone / Computer

5. Smsing / Calling

6. Durians / Fried Worms 

7. Coke / Sprite

8. Cold weather / Hot weather

9. Pancakes / Waffles

10. Sand / Grass

11. Vanilla / Chocolate

12. Coughing / Sneezing

13. Paper / Plastic

14. Gold / Silver

15. Watermelon / Strawberry

16. Slippers / Shoes

17. Early Bird / Night owl

18. Books / Magazines

19. Tall / Short (In between haha yea in between )

20. Heaven Above / Paradise on Earth

Tag : Ying, Cheese, Khairul, Shuqi and Alex.

Grey's Anatomy Quotes

We all get at least one good wish a year, over the candles on our birthday. Every now and then one of those wishes come true. So what then? Is it as good as we hope? Or do we just notice we got hell of a long list of wishes waiting to be wish?

We don't wish for easy stuffs, we wish for big things.

Things that are ambitious, out of reach. 

We still wish though, 

because sometimes they come true.

Dear Friend,

朋友. 你说你不想看到身边的人伤心, 你要他们都快乐. 

可是你眼神背叛了你的伪装, 你不是真正的快乐 又如何带给其他人微笑呢? 

我都知道, 其实我全部都知道. 你骗不了我的. 

想哭就哭, 想笑就笑, 不要顾虑太多. 

人 群中 哭著 你只想變成透明的顏色 

你再也不會夢 或痛 或心動了 

你已經決定了 你已經決定了 

你 靜靜 忍著 緊緊把昨天在拳心握著 

而回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了 

越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割

你不是真正的快樂 你的笑只是你穿的保護色 

你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了 

把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼 

這 世界 笑了 於是妳合群的一起笑了 

當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇 

於是妳 含著眼淚 飄飄盪盪 跌跌撞撞 的走著

你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的癒合 

我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河 

難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然後才後悔著 

你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色 

為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢 

能不能就讓 悲傷全部 結束在此刻 

重新開始活著

停留在一个地点也没什么意义, 人生就是要前进, 不管有多困难 多不想 我们还是要继续前进的.

The only thing we can do is keep moving forward. :D I know you are much better than this.

期待看到属于你自己的快乐. ^^ 走走走!! ( Go Go Go ! )

Plan B

1. Mess with 3d modelling - model a character.

2. Make a short film.

3. Exercise.

4. Upgrade laptop or get a desktop.

5. Earn some cash.

What was my Plan A? Sleep. Eat. Play. 

I hope my Plan B works.

Before i slp, suddenly i think of :

French Polynesia - Ultimate destination (Islands) Bora Bora, Tahiti

When i just look at these pictures, my heart beats faster and i can't stop smiling. Terharu!!! 感动!! Absolutely beautiful and yea picturesque! 

When can i visit such spectacular place?? I must go there with my love one! family, lover and fren - we must share this experience together... I can feel that everyday is happy day there. 

Argh i miss islands!

BoraBora island :

i wan to go there! who can bring me there?? pls pls pretty pls! :D 

Once Again

Just now went to Yingying place to drink and brag about relationship problem (not ours thou ;D) and watched Jeeper Creepers... - - Anyway, we was talking about how this particular women treated her relationship. Even though her boyfren treated her badly ( i dont want to elaborate ), she still wants to be with him. I wonder why?? Why we, women love to torture ourselves? Exclude me pls. I ain't got the patience to stick with some faggots that rottening my happiness. If be with the person you love means having more sad, sorrows, insecure, blah blah. I rather move on with someone who are better or just be with myself(& my cute dogs).

While we were talking, suddenly i thought of an article i wrote long time ago about this problem & i found it! I wrote it on 2007! :

Big Girl Don't Sad ( Read finish or else don't even start )


Back from Genting! Woohoo straight go Grandma house eat lunch, Grandpa out from hospital and he look much better now. Thx God.

While eating my delectable yummy home cooking lunch ( i am grandma's cooking's fan ) i read through articles in newspaper. One of the article attracted me, was about this lady. I think she's from Taiwan actress or artist. Well is just a normal interview about her but i very very very agree with what she said in the paper.

We as a modern age women or girl , should know how to make ourselves happy and not always be sad. Our OWN happiness should come first in our life, just like a pyramid but sadly most of the girl have inverted pyramid. Here is a clearer image(or more confusing LOL) :



This is what i belief too. I saw lot of sad cases around me, in the news and everywhere. They were sad and depressed over their boy, life, family etc. Her bf hit her, her bf treat her like shit yet, Girl treat them with patient and tolerant but what we get is shitty repay. Seriously is this really what you wanted?? We should care more of our own feeling and happiness. Happiness should be the 1st place in the pyramid 2nd will be your boy, family, frens. 3rd will be money, material and etc. Learn to love yourself so that you can love somebody else.

In the interview, she also said that some of her girlfriend kept complain about the pay for the job is not gud , that bf not gud. When you are unhappy with it just change it or throw it , whats the point of making oneself suffer? Just do something you like, even if it is hard, you will still love it no matter what.

What i think is:

We swim like mad sperm to get in that fugly ovum just to be born in this wonderful world. We are all fighters and winners , we deserve better. That is why we should be happier because we are all winners! We are not born to be treated like some garbage here. We are all champion here! Sometimes being stubborn and self-centered is not such a bad thing after all. Is not that you are selfish, you just stand up for yourself, your own point of view. Yea i glad that i am stubborn. I glad that i not follower anymore. I glad that i can fight for myself.

有时 女人自我 是一件好事. 至少你了解自己, 肯为自己活得精彩!

将才是最有自信的人.

Other people torture you, is a crime. You torture yourself, is a sin.
Come on! Step up Step up! 活出自我!!!!





Wisdom.com ( LOL )

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Tats the article i wrote about gal's right to happiness. Lots of grammatical mistakes and Yea the pyramid i drew was disastrous. The top of the pyramid shld be our happiness and so on but most girl nowadays have the inverted pyramid which means they put their own(happiness,dignity etc) priority at the bottom.

This is 2009 and stop living in the old TVB drama story plot, the part where the poor heartbroken little pathetic girl that cry her lungs out for a fucking useless guy. Snap out of it and move on like the a real girl. No i am serious. We don't live long in this world, do we need more depress hours?? Hell no.

When your relationship really kenot be safe :

Cry, let it out, suck it in, be strong, move on, upgrade yourself, try more new stuff that you never got the chance to do so, do things that you like and falls in love again.

You only live once. Stop making it shittier.

*If you are a boy and you be like any of those pathetic TVB drama gal i will kick ur ass hard. Be a man. fuck.

I am Awesome.

I am still alive! After an incredible journey of doing DM assignment, now i feel that i can conquer anything i want! lol lame. 

Wed : W0ke up at 11am, started experimenting and creating the game. Work untill the next day.
Thursday : Work till around 1pm, i cant take it anymore, took a cat nap for 1 and a half hours.                     Woke  up at 230pm and continued my work. 

Friday : Went back Cyber at around 9pm, reached Cyber continued creating the game, concept board, documentation, printing and burn cd. Finished everything ( exept the website) around 230pm. I got exam on 3pm till 5pm. Submitted my work at around 440pm. Went back kepong and slept at 8pm till 2pm (Sat). 

Nonstop for 3 days! NO study for final exam! sorry media aes~ Now my face look like the beautiful moon. = = As for the game, i enjoy making it eventhought encountered some problems like how to get the character auto show text right after a battle

Is not the full game, just a prototype. So, the game is not even release yet ( lol ) Anyway this is the concept art, collaboration between me and my fren Charuk! He did most of the painting and drawings (pro)  lol I drew the main character face and colored the evil god and reedit abit :
Well, the game is not as pretty as the concept art = = 

Some screenshots from the game, ShadowBred:

Here is the game : Download at your own risk. =)  (Actually, Norman requested ^^")

>>>>>>>>> ShadowBred <<<<<<<<

* one of my childhood dream : Make an RPG game. LOL dream came true ey? BUT IS NOT A COMPLETE RPG GAME!! ARGH!

List

1. Earn my first 1 million dollar. ( dollar ok)

2. Ride a bike, a big bike

3. Jump off a cliff into the sea...as long is safe

4. Surf!

5. Okay sky diving! i love to fly..apparently we just falling

6. Find Mr.Big (LOL)

7. Go to NYC! 

8. Make a film

9. Bungee jump!

10. Eat, Play, Shop at Japan~ ikuzo

11. Go to outer space!!! hahaaa

12. Attend a fabulous fashion show

 

will add more in the future~

What if you can

Watched two great movies and one good movie just now. 

Trainspotting and The Bucket List are awesome. :D 

as for 2046.... not wong kar wai's best yet. 

whee  i wan to my list before i kick the bucket~! let's do it tml..i will still be here tml rite? yea? no? 

haha shall see

Motivate

Human need motivation to do things.

FUCKING START YOUR ASSIGNMENT TML! 

okei . i am done.

Little Bit

Lykke Li~ I love her dance move, is awkward and weird but she is enjoying and working it. I like her Little Bit. Mainly because i love the lyric of the song. It captured my heart okei or my brain.. Brain is the only thinking thing(organ?) that controls all of our emotions ( or actions). Our heart just to keep us alive but sometimes i secretly think that my heart is hiding a sophisticate little tiny brain somewhere between the veins. 

i am too proud for love.

Lykke Li - Little Bit ( Aether Remix ) zshare

Lykke Li - Little Bit Feat Drake & Mickey Factz zshare

but i think i'm a little bit in love for you. But only if you're  a little bit in l-l-love for me. 

*check out her videos to see her dance move :D ahahaha

So far so good

Hows everyone's new year? This year i stucked in Cyberjaya! yay. Twisting my head to hope that some intelligent juices might just squeeze through and give me an idea or hints on HOW TO WRITE THIS PARTICULAR AURA ESSAY. Argh Walter Benjamin's is literally torturing me on new year eve and new year. Spare me... U R DEAD ALREADY! or he is not?

Dawn of the last day, Kitty Keat ajak go cyberpak to have a stroll...see sunset or whatever. Saw this bloody cheesy flower arrangement thing. An Iranian guy was picking up flowers and arranged it into a love or heart shape. I bet he took a photo of it and MMS to his wife back in Iran with text like :" Honey, Happy New Year!"

I jahat. So i went and took the photo of the flower and claimed it as mine! After finish plagiarised his magnificient artwork, i used my giant feet and destroyed it into pieces. :D i ain't got no romance. Anyway i saja for the sake of last day 2008 i made a bet with Kitty Keat and i loosed. Now he can slap me anytime he want to.  Only one slap. 

Later, went back home and met Khairul Cheese and Khairul J. Khairul J got a life! we all don't have. So we decided to celebrate new year in front of the pc. I wanted to do my essay but no nothing came out. So i went to sleep at around 8pm :D  Woke up at 1030pm to get ready for my roommate's bday Yvonne! yeaa 1st of Jan is her bday man, the whole world is counting down to her bday. Awesome.

BUT last min like really last min, we all(my fellow hsemates and neighbour mates, basically all poor ppl that stucked with assignments) decided to go see fireworks display (Putrajaya bridge) at Cyberview lodge park. 12:00am striked while we were all in the car. damn. Well end up there were no fireworks, guess that government already forget about US, (normal human being that lust for entertainment) Cyberjaya and Putrajaya's citizens. I saw lots of family, humans camping/picnic by the lake and worst of all the Putrajaya (jammed with car) waiting for the fireworks~ All gave up and went back home after like 1210am.  As for us, we camwhoe abit by the lake...ya again.

Later, went back and had a surprise bday bash for Yvonne. All i can say is there were lots of flying chocolate cakes, splashing beers, water and more cakes. Thx to William... i was attacked by all those infectious cake zombies. = = In order to protect myself, i burned William down. :D

Charuk....Charuk i know you waited this moment for a long time!! YOU BLOODY AIMED ME !! but i return attacked him with beers shower! Poor Bday gal's face was full with cakes T_T happy bday my dear fren! :D

After that makan at old town~ I think Cyberjaya's oldtown is the best(in term of Oldtown restaurant). Seriously. After had our 1st sumptious 2009 meal (why oldtown T_T), went back home and played some games... I laughed damn hard man. William was the big WINNER! yea "winner" with the prize of all of our saliva. :D Mix drinks, passing banana and cheezels~ Banana with garlic chilis...What else. William and Tsing Yong LOL best kisser of the day. Yvonne kissed JianWei's armpit LOL Jian Wei banana bang with Leonard... I rubbed Von's ass with my face - - , Keat was Hitler. I laughed till stomachpain.

The games ended at around 630am but not for me~ I went to Yap's house to take some movies :D Tom and Jerry muahaha. The first sunrise i saw  in 2009 was in Yap's place. Din really saw it just saw the day getting brighter and brighter and voila~ Morning. First morning of 2009, nice to meet you 2009. 请多多指教! Yoroushiku!

9am. Slp. 

This is the flower thingy :

"honey~ Happy new year~"

 

My ass. 

Happy new year everyone! Bring it on 2009!!! 没怕过!!! 

Chinese new year is coming soon! Can't wait. :D