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There is a naked picture of a cat. Just kidding. Cat don't wear clothes.

The Perks of Being a Wallflower.

Can't wait for this movie, i swear this is going to be really good.

Balls.

Life's a bitch, a very bitchy one that grabs you by the balls when you least expected. Yes life is unfair, is so unfair that to a certain extent you just want to scream and just stab yourself, straight to the middle of your heart.

Yet, life is fair when it comes to illness. Regardless of your sex, age, race, status, we can never run away from it. My aunt was diagnosed with breast cancer, 3rd stage. She just finished her chemotherapy sessions and having her first radiotherapy soon. And last week, my best friend's father was diagnosed with lung cancer, 4th stage. 4th stage is a very scary stage for a cancer patient. He will be having his chemo session this coming Tuesday, i think. My friend was devastated, the bad news just crushed her. I thought i know how to comfort her since i shared the same experience of having a family member who is suffering from cancer, but i guess i'm quite clueless in the end.

"Everyone tell me to prepare for the worst." she said.
"Why can't we hope for the best?" i said.

It kills me to see her this depress and sad... Yes if i were to be in her shoe i would be devastated too. I want her dad to be well, and i want her to be well too. What should i do? What should i say?

Everything is so fragile now that i'm afraid the words that are coming out from my mouth would break her to pieces... Dear friend, please stay strong and know that i will always be there for you.  Be strong and grabs back the balls of life. Don't let go.

Ready. Set. Stay.

Okay, so i made a decision.

I am going somewhere.
Probably i'll see you again.

Ready, set, go.

IF.

IF you are what you eat, then i am awesome.
IF roses are red, probably blood too.

I think i tried and try too hard.
damn.

Just.

In case you haven't noticed, i am fucking in love with you.

This image does not associate with my statement above.

Is a lightbulb with wings, if you know what i mean...

The moment.

Sometimes i don't understand myself at all, i'm not sure what i was thinking or about to think.
Do the words that came out from my mouth speak what was in my brain? I'm not sure.

These few days ive been watching movies. It's been awhile since i watch any real movies. I was seeking for something which i will never know, and movie therapy is the only way. As i was watching my third movie, Amelie it left me in a depressive feeling in the end. It was a happy ending but the last 10mins of the film just made me stuck in a melancholic state.

I guess my current state of mind pretty much related to this character. Do i rather imagine myself with someone that is absent rather than building a real relationship with people around me? Or my heart will be dry and brittle like Raymond's bone...

I just wish the moment will last a little bit longer. Just a little bit.

I'm such a coward.

Unconditional.

How should i start this. Well happy chinese new year fellows! I guess my celebration this year is pretty good regardless how many of us put on a really good poker faces (partially) to greet the relatives. Nobody is perfect even in the families. Don't get me wrong, i love hanging out with my relatives some of them i wish they stay nearer or closer as for some, let's just keep to the tradition: see you at the reunion dinner.

Since is CNY, let's talk about togetherness and family. For me, family is the only people that can give unconditional love and care for each other. No matter how stubborn or good, neurotic or dumb, defect or perfectly normal, your family will accept you as who you are. I know this because i've been through a lot with my family.

For me, my mom is the unsung hero in my family. If is not for her efforts, i dont think my family can make it this far. Thank you Mom! I guess perhaps she learned the importance of family values when she was very young. Growing up in a big family at a small 'kampung baru' (town), they were not well-off but definitely rich and full of love from the inside. My grandfather and grandmother really taught them well, even until today i can still see the great bonding among the siblings. I love all my aunties and uncles. I really do wish them well, but sadly life doest work that way.

Yes, some unfortunate events might occurred every now and then. Each time they worked their way and helped each other out like a true family. I salute the siblings, i really do respect all my aunts and uncles. Yet, shit happens. All i can do now is observe, like they says :"you're just a kid, don't interfere in adult's stuff." The thing is i am 24 this year, I feel pretty useless cause i can't help much in these kind of matters.

Everyone is struggling, yet everyone celebrated CNY happily. Well is not as lively as before (ever since my grandpa passed away) but i'm glad that the spirit is still there. These few days are pretty tough for everyone, i know. I'm just hope that with this unconditional sacrifice, the bond among the family will win again. I do, i really do hope so.

So this CNY, i am content. No i should be very happy to surround by all this awesome people. I'm very happy indeed. Appreciate what you have and spend more time with your family this CNY.

P.S Aunty (Jiu Mu) please be strong and fight all those cancer cells away!

Gong Xi Fa Cai to everyone!
May this year be an auspicious year for everyone.

Moonrise Kingdom by Wes Anderson.

How excited i am to finally watch this trailer, never thought that the main characters are two kids(from imdb).

Enjoy this amazing new-coming-soon film by Wes Anderson:

Kitty at the end!

New Year Eve anyone?

Here we are again, the last day of a year, this time around is 2011's last day.

Had a great awesome year? I hope you do, whoever is reading this.

Well, for me this year definitely full of dramas, surprises and adventures. 

I am truly happy and thankful for the year 2011. Another learning year that taught me the way of life, the real life where there always ups and downs, high or low. There will always be struggles but everything is worth it in the end. Trust me.

So the notorious 2012 is coming, as a tradition i shall write down my New Year Resolution aka the-forever-list but this time around, a little bit different:

1. Be happy.

2. To love and be loved.

3. Have a successful career.

4. Live curious (nat geo!), continue learning. 

5. Explore the wonderful world.

6. Be healthy.

A very humble list.  :)

Something to think about:

Conclusion for 2011:

I learned that i need to keep believe in myself. This is cliche but one day, yes the one day, and yea one day i will make it. When that day comes, i hope i will be able to share the joy with all my dearest.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Have an awesome kick-ass year ahead! Cheers.

Merry Christmas!

Hello folks, merry christmas!

Made this video for my company, kind of like a two days thing. Just want to do something simple and witty. Argh, hvn't get any xmas presents for my cousin yet. Kind of like last min thing where we decided to have gift exchange party. Anyway enjoy the video and have a jolly merry christmas!

Santa is such a stalker. :)

Kimbra

This girl is amazing.

I could have her hair but i decided to chop it off on that day.

Watched her live performance, she is that good!

My latest music crush.

Cameo Lover just brighten my day.

Please please come to Malaysia or Singapore, i would love to see you perform!

Not a good month.

A demon growing inside, waiting to break loose.
Be resilient and shut down everything.

Let it go, girl. Just let it go.
What the heck, just let me hate all these for a little while longer.

Radio, i just heard about this domestic violence ad on the radio. I had an urge, but it was silly i guess.
Everything is fucking silly.

I want to believe the good in people. I do.
Yet i dislike the kindness.

Hypocrite.
Liar.
Assholes.

Hello Bali (4D3N) !

Day 3

Another scorching day but who cares about sunburn when you're on vacation... That day we went to see the famous Tanah Lot and few lakes.

In the evening, we went back to the Kuta beach to watch the beautiful sunset scene... It was my first time to see so many people actually sitting by the beach side to wait for sunset... Everyone was really anticipating the moment the sun say goodbye and welcome the night.

Good Bye Bali!

Oh i love this ship-like-kite... Very nice!

Sailing in the sky with the wind, awesome.

Fall.

Do you ever think the action you did will be forgiven that easily?
Had you lost your mind when you decided to do what you did to her?
Do you feel any remorse or even a slightest regret of your own words and actions?

I asked, you said no.
It kills me.

Seems like pretty easy for you to just break apart from us.
Do you ever really care about me? I don't think so.
I can't feel it.

Why are you speaking to me now with such kind tone?
You should have known i was really disappointed at you, how can you talk with me in such a normal conversation?
Are you feeling lonely now that everyone you close to are drifting away from you?
Have you ever think that why people avoid your presence?

Please stop.
When this kind of shit happens, you have to pick side. Our, you or her.
I picked us but you don't, so i am with her now.

Stop talking to me with such kind tone. I can't take it.
Just ignore my existence like how you isolated yourself from all of us.
Your zero effort to want us to work things out, i can't see you anymore.

When you hurt her, you hurt me too.
Everything happens for a reason, I guess this is the best i can do.

Bye.

Brainfart.

Aahh, 3 weeks to draw a xxx?
I sucked. I forgot the fundamentals of design. . . i just can't get it right.

Wonder do i really have this.
Please brain please stop farting and give me ideas!

Hello Bali (4D3N) !

Day Two

Woke up early in the morning, like around 630am... Long trip ahead, like really long trip.
My favourite location at Bali - Kintamani. A very beautiful place with volcano, mountain, lake, cooling air... everything just perfect for this getaway.

After a long hours car ride, ass pain but totally worth it!

Volacano and a lake. 

Myra & me. Tired but happy face.

A boat man approached us, and asked us if we want to ride 'sampan' (boat) to see a tomb. He asked for a high price, after haggling for 10mins finally we settled at around 200,000 rupiah each. Took a another 20mins ride to the nearby village to dock the boat.

A very chill-relax village:

Kids there love KPOP. I heard some girls singing "Nobody nobody but you" and the signature dance.

Cute.

My servants..muahaha.

Happy!

A tiny place by the lake, after around 40mins of roll roll roll your boat, finally reach the place. Theres a tribe of villagers that "bury" their deceased member at the site, letting the body to decompose without really bury the body underground. Once the body is fully decompose, the bone and skull are collected and display by the site on a stone. When we reached there we can't smell any foul aroma as most of the decompose thing give out a strong smell. The tour guide said because of the big tree, it gives out a very aromatic scent and absorb the bad odour. Amazing! 

Welcome to . . .

Dragon tail with offering.

The tree behind is the legendary tree!

Beside us is the guardian that guard the place.

I got a chance to play the traditional instrument of Bali! Love the tone of the sound that came out from the instrument. Rain started to fall after that, so we quickly sail back to the dock and had a very delicious lunch cooked by the local aunty.

The served a very delicious fish, the local call it "Ikan Mujairab"

The fish freshly steamed and covered with sambal! spicy but tasty!

Till next time! Monkey yo!

* Photo all from Keat's camera :)